I haven’t updated in a while. I seem to start almost every
blog post with that line.
Nothing eventful I guess has happened. I’m feeling like
utter horse shit today. I had a job interview last week and a second job
interview this week and I found out this morning if I got it or not. As you may
be able to tell by the fact I feel like horse shit I did not get it.
I am pretty fucking gutted to be honest. It was perfect and
easy to commute more money and something I would enjoy doing better. I am so
tempted to sack off being a graphic designer and get a job like where Matt works.
Something that is easy and keeps me busy and makes the days go quickly. Then
concentrate on my illustrations at the weekends, because I hate the work I do
here 99% of the time. And I want to leave. It’s not really being creative its
mostly putting together junk and making it look a little nicer. I don’t really
know what I want to do with my life at the moment. Although what I do know is,
I really FUCKING WANTED THAT GOD DAMN JOB. I liked the atmosphere there, I
liked the work that I would be doing and it was still in the line of design so
I wouldn’t feel like a cop out. I can be very creative and I can do nice work,
but I struggle when it’s boring and I don’t care. My attention span is so shit
I just can’t do it and I honestly don’t care at all. Not one bit.
Ahh well. I will keep looking and hopefully something will
come up somewhere somehow. Maybe I should do my design work more freelance then
I can decide on what projects and work I can take and do. Where I use adobe at
work so much going home and doing at the weekends doesn’t appeal to me at all.
I am feeling a little despaired right now.
It is nice having Matt at home at the weekends now. I enjoy
that. We are going to see Despicable me 2 tomorrow morning and last weekend we
had to pick something up from his old work so we went down to Brighton for the
evening and ate amazing food and played on the pier.
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