I never update. I am going to try and change this!

I have been very lucky in securing myself a job here as a graphic designer. I say securing, but I haven’t I don’t actually know why I put that. Ahhh well. I am hoping that it will turn into something full time as I do really need the money. If I get to keep this job it will secure me for quite a while and will mean I can start to enjoy life a little more and stop obsessing over money all the time.

I am very proud of myself. I was diagnosed with serve dyslexia almost 5 years ago now when I started Uni at Epsom and I have made my way through life all on my own with little to no help other than support from family and friends. I managed to get myself a National Diploma, Foundation Degree and a Degree and all of them are average or above grades which I am proud of considering how much I can struggle and how lazy I am.

I wish so much I could go back to Uni though. I mean it is nice having money and the like. but I miss the freedom the socialising and not being a full adult quite yet. Doing all day Monday to Friday still scares me. I want to have more time to myself, at the moment I wonder what the point of life is, if you spend 5 days a week sat in an office doing work that you don’t particularly want to do. Then I think it’s actually only 7.5 hours or 8.5 hours if you include lunch out of 24 hours. That leaves 15.5 hours of the day so I guess it’s not that bad. I should spend 8.5 hours at work and 8 hours sleeping and 7.5 hours socialising or doing what I want. Although that’s not including almost 2 hours of the day I throw away on driving to and from work. UGH! It’s scary to know that my life isn’t really that fun anymore.

On the plus side though, I have money now. I can buy things that I want and I can do things that I want (when I get time anyway :/) I guess now I can start to pay off my mountain of a debts and look at the possibility of getting a flat for me and Matt.

I got myself some LOVELY VANS the other day, they are the Hello Kitty ones and I want to wear them all day everyday!

I've also lost 3lbs this week which is great as I wanted to lose at least before the 8th of October, or before the 3rd really as that is when me and Matt are off to France, and then we come back on the 7th and my birthday is on the 8th.

They are so PRETTY! I think I am going to ask for another pair (a grey pair) for my birthday they are that comfy! It's annoying as the colour I have picked seems to be sold out almost everywhere but I found a shop on eBay even though they are £10 more boooo.

Anyway I shall end this here and I will just say it is an hour till Lunch and I CANNOT WAIT AS I AM STARVING HUNGRY! 

Byes