My new coat

Life seems to be going ok at the moment. Me and Matt have been really good :) I am really hoping maybe he can start to forgive me… perhaps?

I am on some MAGER healthy weight loss kick at the moment. I lost like 1.5stone in around a month back in January/February with plans to lose another 1-2stone by Laura’s wedding. Then all the bad stuff happened with Matt and I ended up eating complete shit and actually putting on around 7lbs.

I’ve been trying to do it again and I have on and off. I’m down to 212lbs ish and I want to get below 200lbs by the end of Christmas and I have a good motivation now. ….My new coat ahah.

Ok so the idea behind this coat was that I wanted THE PREFECT COAT this year. Being a student pretty much all my life has restricted me to buying sale items or Primark or ‘Cheap’ items and this year I wanted the perfect expensive coat that I know will last a few years rather than falling apart after a few months now I have quite a well-paying job,  and I found it, £70 and only available in plus size (which had sold out and would most likely of been too big) and Petite and being almost 5ft8” I am not petite (which is 5ft3” and below.) I may have been ok with a plus size 18, but I was pretty sure as I wear a 14-16 in most shops for coats it would have been too big. Then I found out the girl modelling the coat was 5ft6” and I decided to just give it ago and it came on Friday…. I was 100% sure it wouldn’t fit, but it did pretty much. It’s perfect all-round the body I wouldn’t want it any bigger, the issue is the arms and back, it is quite tight and my left arm seems tighter and actually gets really achy when I have it on… strange…. So it has now acted as a MASSIVE motivator to lose weight because if I can lose half a stone to a stone I think it would fit really nicely. I had dresses that used to cut into my arms and across my back that are now a bit big so hopefully if I try really hard, by Christmas it will fit a bit better J and by January it will be perfect! I hope anyway, it’s not way too tight, and I can move and rive ok in it, it’s just the achy arm that is a massive pain in the ass.!

It really is so pretty and perfect for my body shape and my skirts that I wear. I think it is quite classic so I could wear it again next year! I just hope so much if I lose some weight then it will fit perfectly!

Anyhoo, the weekend was over and done with way too quickly and I really need to sleep. The drive to work this morning was dangerous as I really couldn’t keep my eyes open on the motorway I was that tired. I don’t have much to do today which is a right pain in the ass…… I have a bit to do later and I will have quite a lot to do the rest of the week, but I hate slow days like this when there is nothing really to do D:

Well in about an hour it will be nearly lunchtime and then I can start my count down of the day to home where I will have my healthy BBQ chicken and zoo animals and peas for dinner. Yummy. 

Last weekend and its the weekend tomorrow WOOHOO!

I had such a nice weekend last weekend! Me and Matt went to London on the Saturday to the mega bloks day they had in Forbidden Planet. We were way too early, I was told they would hand out goody bags when they opened in the morning at 10am and then the actual thing started at midday. But they didn’t hand anything out until midday…. So we pottered about and got a coffee from the Christmas coffees at Starbucks. I just generally enjoyed being with him. The event itself wasn’t very spectacular, it was pretty much a man from mega bloks building a mega bloks toy thing for 4 hours. So went went off and looked around other parts of London town.

Went to Matt’s favourite T-Shirt shop, although they didn’t really have anything and also looked around a few other places then got some food too as we hadn’t eaten since breakfast and it was about 2:30-3pm.

We then went back to forbiddon planet to see if they guy had finished the model in the 4 hours, he had not and I bought some comics and Matt got a T-Shirt and we made our way home.

Got in around 6:30pmish and I fell asleep till 10pm and had some food and then fell back asleep which I am annoyed about as I wanted to spend the MOST amount of time with Matthew as I humanly could! However I have been unwell all week and I was too tired and sniffly to fight the sleep.

Sunday was annoying as I took Matt to work as it was raining so hard in  the morning. They told him he couldn’t have the Sunday off too, yet when he got there they were over staffed and the shop was dead, so Matt came home earlier and that was nice…. Still would have been better if they had been more competent and let him have the day off in the first place!

Then Monday morning I was so dizzy and just felt so shit I stayed at home, Matt also had the day off which was great as we spent ages laying in bed and I thoroughly enjoyed it! We watched Star Trek, popped to the café down the Valley and had lunch and then at Midnight went and got his new Halo Xbox. So I doubt I will speak to him much for the next week ahah. It’s ok as I am going out tonight to see Aimee…. Yaay.

I think things are ok between me and Matt the moment. Things feel nice I think, I’m always waiting though for it to plummet down again and my heart to break again…… but oh well. Hopefully he can forgive me in time and hopefully he won’t leave me In February because I love him more than the world…. Alas.

The rest of the week has been pretty crappy. I am really struggling with this work work work thing. I’m sort of thinking whats the point of being alive if this is all I do with myself. I work to afford things, like I could work all year to afford to go on holiday for a week. What the fuck is the point of that. Ah well, hopefully this will go away with time and working will get easier.

I have loads of time off over Christmas which I am super pleased about. I am having a half day on the 11^th to then get up to London to see Mumford and sons. Then I have the 12^th and the 13^th off to spend with Matt and get the Christmas presents sorted and what not. Then I work for a week and 2 days and then it’s Christmas day and I have the 25^th – 30^th off and I offered to work the 31^st and then I have the 1^st off! YAAAY, I’m so excited for December to come, time off Mumford and sons and Christmas. It’s my favourite time of the year!

Anyway it is the weekend tomorrow and I cannot wait. This one will be a slow and chilled out one and I am going to be really exciting and clean the room and wash all the clothes! I cannot wait till Lunch time I am getting hungry. Only an hour to go D:

The weekend is long gone now.

It’s Monday again. OOOooooOoooh. Mondays are the worst. There’s that IMPENDING DOOM AHEAD of a whole 5 days until the weekend again. Ugh. Last week went by insanely fast. I like coming in and getting on with a bucket load of work. It makes the day zoooom by and it is interesting, but today I have very little to do.

I do however have Saturday to look forward to, as Matt has managed to get it off. HURRAh! I’m so excited to spend a day with him and we will be going up to London to Forbidden Planet for the Halo Mega Bloks day.

I got a really nice jacket at the week and some amazing nail polish.

I went shopping on Saturday to get some jumpers for work and instead got a jacket lol! It was way too busy and manic in Croydon on Saturday to think straight let alone shop! So I found this jacket/coat in H&M and I’m glad it fitted as the back of their coats are usually way too small for me. It was £35 and it has a real Sherlock Holmes feel to it to me anyway with the pattern! I only own massive coats or just hoodys and I thought it would be nice to have something a little smaller for when I got shopping or just to the pub and a MASSIVE HEAVY coat is necessary! 

I also tried some Model’s Own nail polish at my friends house when I went to my party last weekend and was so impressed by it I had to go and buy some! They didn't have the one I wanted, but I got a purple, baby blue ( which I plan on caking with glitter so it looks like snow and ice) and a disco ball one that looks like glittery confetti!

I’m going to go at lunch to boots and see if they have the other colour as they are 3 for 2 at the moment so for £10 I get three really really good nail polishes!  I’m not sure they will have that range as only the bigger store seem to have them but fingers crossed!

I have also wanted to show off the boots, skirt and scarf I got last week. 

The boots I super nice and were from Tesco and the Skirt has tiny black swallows on it and is a skater skirt style. The scarf is HUGE and is covered in moustaches and both of those are from New Look. 

I really enjoy the fact that I do have some money now and I can buy some bits and pieces that I like. I try not to go crazy with spending my money as I owe so much and I don’t know how long I will have this job for, but it’s nice being able to buy some new bits and pieces and not wonder if you will have enough money to eat in the week.!

So yeah got a few new bits! And the impending doom of the week ins ahead of me. But before I know it, it will be Saturday again and all will be good.

So goodbye for now.

The weather is shit

My god this week has been so so so BUSY! Tuesday I had to get loads of work books finished and completed and out by the time I left, that did not happen and I didn’t get home till 8:30!! JEEZ! Then on the Wednesday I was busy doing another work book that was needed to be completed done and bound with feedback sheets by lunchtime today. I did that! And it’s gone and now this afternoon I don’t have very much to do! Which is nice as it isn’t stressful, but at the same time it makes time go very slowly! Only just got back from lunch I usually eat around 12:30ish and take lunch around 12:45-13:45 but I took it from 13:20:14:20 which is kinda good as it means there is less afternoon and ON TOP OF THAT I got in 10 minutes early today and that means I can leave at 17:05 wooopa! And then tomorrow is the LOVELY LOVELY weekend.

I have no real plans for tomorrow or Sunday. Might see Gem I guess on Sunday. Might just have some ‘me’ time on the Saturday. Got to go Reigate for 1pm and then I may go on into Croydon. I really want a new bag and I’m not really sure what I want. So I think I will go and have a look around….

I saw an amazing iPad case on Wednesday and now I highly regret not buying it. It was Marvel and all old comic book style. Might keep my eyes peeled for that too!

I’m not feeling overly happy this week. I guess the realisation that me and Matt aren’t getting better has hit home. I want to so much and sometimes I feel that he doesn’t want to. I’m sure that’s not the case but meh. I am truly sorry but that doesn’t seem to matter. And I’ve pushed all my friends away so I’m pretty fucking lonely half the time. I go to work, come home, and go to work. Le sigh.

At least I won’t have to go to work. Instead I get to sit on my own for two days.

Anyway I’m depressing myself.

I better crack on with the few bits I have to do this afternoon. Only just over 2 hours of the week left. Hurrah.

Ma Partay

I had a really nice Saturday this weekend. Work last week was manic and I had so much to do. But that was good as it meant the days flew by! But I have loads to do today and tomorrow.

Saturday I got up real early and went and took Matt to the station and then went to spec savers and got the contacts sorted out! Dailies seem  to be working much better for me than monthly ones. I then drove straight to Croydon and was there by 10:30am and it was really quiet and very pleasant shopping on a Saturday as usually I go in the afternoon and it is way too busy and hectic. 

 I had a very good shop too and got some lovely bits. The jumper to the right, I've always wanted a tacky Christmas jumper and now my dreams have come true and for £12 too so it wasn't even expensive. I cannot wait to wear that out at Christmas time! WOOOPA! 

Then I went into New look and found a LOVELY skirt and I tried it on a it looked great which made me very happy. It’s hard to find skirts that I love. Usually I hate the pattern or the shape is completely wrong, but this one was exactly what I like and I also bought a Moustache scarf! I will post a picture of them up when I am next wearing them!
I then went for lunch and a look round Redhill with Gem and then picked Matt up from work and headed over to Cat’s house to have a night with the girls from Uni and a little birthday thing…. BUT THEY ACTUALLY THREW ME A SURPRISE PARTY.

 It was soo soo soo cool and there was a party table and balloons and a banner and food and drink! It was sooo nice! And then they got me the coolest gifts. They all went and got me a bear hoody that I have wanted forever and Aimee drew me a pillow of all the amazing things that I love the most. It made me completely speechless which is something that is very hard…. It was amazing and it was all so thoughtful!

We then ordered Pizza and ate too much, watched some TV played with balloons and just had a really really nice night! I had to leave about midnight as I was falling asleep I was so tired, but it was fun and I was really touched they would go out their way to do that for me.

Sunday on the other hand was pretty shit. Had a MASSIVE HEADACHE, weather was awful and it was boring and long and I wasted half  the day asleep. Ahhh well, and now it’s Monday again and I have a whole week of work ahead of me. Boooo….

Toodles.

IT'S THE WEEKEND

Ok so  I’m exhausted again D:

I stayed up way too late and watched Dexter, it is amazing though. I feel sad that I am not currently watching it. Also watched new Red Dwarf last night. Its terrible, but I think that’s what makes it soo good! :D

I still have over an hour and a half left at work. I like it when it goes past 4pm because for some reason that last hour just always feels nice, y’know home time is fast approaching and especially today as its Friday yaaaay!

I’m going out today, me TORIA out on a Friday night…. Yes it’s true. Going to see some friends from Uni should be nice. I worry about matt as I know he isn’t in a great mood today and I am praying that he won’t get real upset if I go out tonight. I know he gets lonely when I’m not there :/ but I do miss my friends….

I’m going to see Fee on Sunday, very excited as I haven’t seen her since March or April woooo!

I might be a pig for dinner as I’m starving and just cannot be assed to cook anything!

Anyhooo not long till the weekend now!

My birthday and France.

I’m going to start this post with a list of complaints.

1.  I fucked my thumb nail. It split half way down my nail in the actual nail bed and I tried to ‘fix’ it and now I have a stubby thumb.
2.  My hand is super sore. I have this Calais/dry skin on my hand and I have started to cut it away and file it when it gets quite big as it also gets very sore and making it smaller seems to help. This time it has made it 100x worse.
3. I’m exhausted. I went swimming and then stayed up and watched Dexter way too late.
4. I’m not watching Dexter and this makes me sad. What I would give to go home and watch that all day…   pfft.
5.  There’s still one more day left after this one D:
6. This time last week I was in France >:|

I could go on but I will stop….

On the plus side I am seeing Fee on Saturday and RedDwarf is on tonight.

So France went really well and I had a lovely time. Exhausted on the first day with the traveling and the fact I only got about 3 hours sleep >.<  Had a DELICOUS breakfast in the airport at Frankie and Bennys…. MANY NOMS. Then realised I hadn’t packed a change of top, I was all FUUUUUUUUUUU! Really annoying I was so busy fart assing around getting ready I forgot to pack a bloody change of top…. Got into France around 2pm and went to the food place to buy food for the week, flight was quick and the weather wasn’t too bad.

The evening was nice, ate Pizza I kept falling asleep and we started watching Dexter and it is amazaballs. Like seriously, I’m hooked! Then on the Thursday we went to Anger (On-Jay) and had a DELICOUS lunch and did and bit of shopping and I found an H&M HURROAH and bought a new vest top…. YAY CHANGE OF CLOTHES! Go all that way and that’s all I bought! Again just had a relaxing evening and then on Friday got up late and went to the zoo! It was amazing they had penguins, tigers, lions, leopards, snow leopards. I also got attacked and pecked by some evil bird with a massive long evil beak! The zoo was lovely and was made to feel more like you were walking around with the animals rather than staring at them through bars. The weather on Thursday and Friday was amazing 24 degrees and sunny!

Then on Saturday we had a chill out day. Matts Dad and Julie went out and we played with the dogbot and watched Tv and napped.  It was very nice! And then on the Sunday we flew home. Got back by 3pm and had dominos for dinner.

Then it was my birthday on the 

Monday. Had a nice day with Matt even though it was raining all day…. Went to Croydon and had Poppin Café for Lunch and returned stuff and bought stuff. Stone chipped my windscreen which sucked ass. Then I threw myself a party with the Mr Poes and cooked party foods and watched lots of Dexter with Matt :D

Matt got me a beautiful Hello Kitty Neo figure, I got a Hello Kitty Liberty Tes Set, a dress, two bracelets, Vans, jewellery box, gloves, earrings, scarf, purse and nail varnish! 

Then on the Tuesday didn't do much cause I had to wait in for Auto Glass but eventually went to Lakeside where I bought amazing pajamas. 

Hello Kitty from Primark, they were a little more than I would spend but I had my monies from my birthday.

So yeah now I am back at work and that week I have been so excited for, for over a month has just gone….. pretty sad really D:

Onwards and upwards though :D start focusing on Christmas wooooooooooooooooooo

Toodles xx