Bank Holiday Easter and what nots

I haven’t updated in quite a while so and hey it’s a Friday post not a Monday post. Wahey.

I am counting the days down till the weekend. Alas this time last week it was the Easter bank holiday and it was sunny rather than this disgusting grey fog and rain. I was also at home.

The Easter break was exceptionally pleasant; although it was quiet I really enjoyed it and appreciated the relaxing time. This month has been tough one; money wise and I put some bits on eBay in hope to afford my flamingo dress. I ended up making well over £100 and was thrilled. I haven’t got my dress as of yet, but I did put the rest towards a holiday! It’s only a little holiday to the coast for 5 days in a caravan. I have used my club card vouchers for money towards pizza express and entry into a zoo. I have been craving some space and just time away on our own with Matt and I AM SOOO EXCITED. I am going to try and kick my healthy eating into full swing and I want to lose 12lbs before I go! And once I do that I will reach my ultimate goal the goal I set at the beginning over 50lbs away that I honestly thought was unachievable! But I’m close I’ve been close since December but I haven’t really got back into it since Christmas so now I have 2 months to do it! I know it’s doable and I WILL DO IT!

So Friday I saw a friend and then me and Matt saw Spider Man at the cinema. It was really good and I really enjoyed it! It was quite shocking at the end I wasn’t expecting that!

Saturday was quite relaxed I had to go and post all my eBay parcels but other than that I didn’t do much. I did however make a delicious stir fry! And Then Easter Sunday was spent as usual with my Grandma and Family. We had a delicious roast and I was SPOILT with chocolate so much so by Monday I was SICK OF THE STUFF!

I LOVE LOVE MINI EGGS, and although I love them I am glad they are out of season now! No more till next year. But I was very excited to receive this rather large egg!

After getting home Sunday we headed off to the cinema again and saw transcendence, to be honest it wasn’t very good. I mean it was ok but not great.

Monday we were feeling rather full and lazy and just wanted to get out for a bit so we went to beaver water world. It was a tiny place and saw some animals like merkats and reptiles (no beavers though??), it was a nice though and the money goes to the charity looking after these animals. The sun was out to and we had a coffee sitting outside which I have missed all winter!

It was back to work Tuesday and it’s been a loooong week. Dylan had to be put to sleep on Wednesday evening, I was gutted and my sister was exceptionally kind and paid the £140 (it was out of hours) poor little man his tumour split. So yesterday and today I haven’t been quite as cheerful as I could have been. I do really miss him and now I have none and I feel a little empty now. Plus he was just so lovely I miss him a lot.

But I know he is pain free now and I hope he is somewhere nice and I hope it’s full of strawberry popcorn!

So this weekend is another quiet one. I need to save money as this last month has left me in the red and I need to put a bit of money away for my holiday!

I will end with two pictures that cheer me up.

My sister is looking after a friend’s hedgehog! He was soooo freaking cute and sharp!

And a motivation boosts to see how far I have come! Because sometimes I put myself down too much and forget how far I have come!

Happy Weekend!

Star Treking

It’s Friday again yay! And it’s a bank holiday weekend this weekend so double yay! There’s a book I might have a go at reading this weekend. It’s called ‘The Fault In Our Stars’ seems interesting. Possibly a little sad but we shall see. I don’t think I've written anything in about two weeks. Tut tut. I went to see Star Trek Into Darkness and it was pretty epic! I really really enjoyed it! I loved the way I could still relate to it as a fan of the old series and I loved the way we got to know the characters even more! I didn't really like Spock in the first film, but I warmed to him much more in this one! I will most defiantly be going to see that again before it stops showing in the cinema.

I looked like a massive dork in my shirt and necklace but I did not care I felt pretty awesome. And I actually got a picture with Matt and that was very exciting as he never lets me take photos of him! We bought a combo food thing and I got a free badge, actually she gave us two eep!

 I really like this t-shirt I'm glad I got it (Tesco £8)

 Last weekend was a bit of a flop. I just ended yup going shopping twice! I really don’t like shopping much anymore. This Saturday I am planning on attending MCM expo, I have never been and I think it will be quite fun and interesting! It’s only £10 to get in and £8 for a travel card which I could easily waste if I went shopping on petrol and parking! I might take Matt’s Mass effect box to get signed, I think it would be a good surprise :D

I am going into town this lunch time to pick up some black nail polish to do more patterns and what not. I plan on doing pandas tonight! Last week I did cupcake for my friend Gemma and I went for a simple polka dot effect with a darker green and white on top of light green. I get so many compliments on my nails I really like it :)

Barry M green, Rimmel dark green and a white I had.

I am really hoping the pandas will look nice but we shall see I guess. We shall see.

I've not been well.

So last week was not great. Saturday I was very excited because I was FINALLY going to give Aimee her scarf I made for her for her birthday. The weather if I remember was quite nice, sunshine and not freezing cold. Anyway in the morning I had to sort something out for Matt in the morning my ear was pretty itchy again and I gave it an itch (I get eczema) and I kind of popped it by accident. That gave me quite bad ear pain, although I've done that before and it usually passes. This time it didn't and it was hurting me on and off all day. Towards the end of the afternoon I couldn't hear well and had fluid in my ear, I laid down and it came out and I could hear again so I guessed it was perhaps the drops I put in to sooth the itching. Within an hour or so it had filled up again which I thought was strange and I couldn't shift the blocked feeling.

So I went to the pub and gave Aimee her scarf and she seemed to like it, it was a nice night although I was so annoyed all night as I could only half hear….. and it kept getting worse and now the fluid was coming out my ear all the time. Yuck. When I got home it popped and then the fluid was full of blood. Sunday I woke up and it was much worse but I decided to leave it as I didn't want to waste my Sunday sitting in A&E for a silly leaky ear….. I thought I’d go shopping instead and then I would go to the doctors Monday morning and then go into work after. WRONG.

I was SO INSANELY WRONG. Sunday afternoon while shopping I started to feel ill, then Sunday evening the pain finally started. AND OMG that hurt a lot.

 

Sunday night/Monday morning I hardly slept and I rang in sick on Monday morning, by now I was crying 90% of the time with the pain. Went to the doctors at 11am, she couldn't actually look in my ear because it was so swollen and gave me some drops. I thought that perhaps I would need something stronger but assumed she would know best. WRONG AGAIN.

Monday day was ok, even went and got some food from Tesco. Got home STUFFED MY FACE with chocolate and fell asleep. Then when I woke up everything doubled in pain and wondered home at one point to find my mum (she was out) and UGH I was sobbing. A few people said to go to the A&E but I thought noooo I’m being so silly ear infections hurt and I’m obviously a wimp. WRONG AGAIN.

Tuesday morning I had slept VERY little spent most the night sobbing and just well rolling around in agony. Booked to see the Doctor again and went in at 9am. She again couldn't see, but actually examined me this time. My ear was swollen it was sticking out of my head and my face and neck were tender so she sent me to the hospital.

Waited roughly 4-5 hours and I was finally seen and they admitted me straight away. I was not impressed AT ALL. I've never stayed in a hospital and I was so scared, especially when I realized Matt wouldn't be able to stay with me all night D: it was really really horrible. 

He said he was going to take some blood, that made me crap myself, I've never had blood taken. Then I looked down and there was tubes coming out my hand, which I later realized  were for pumping medication into me. Then I got a very in depth examination, there were MANY MANY TEARS, as it involved sticking things in my ear which was just the worst pain ever. They sucked all the crap out and stuck a ‘wick’ in which made me yelp and burst into tears because it hurt so much.

I was then plopped in the waiting room for another 2-3 hours while they sorted me out a bed. My mum and sister came to join the waiting game too. I got taken to my bed about 5-6pm I started to lose track of time by now. My sister stayed with me while Matt went with my mum to get some stuff for me. I tried to eat but it was too painful so I mostly slept. My Grandma and Grandpa came with Matt to see me but I mostly slept through that as the painkillers they gave me didn't do much.

They went home and I finally fell asleep and was woken up around 8:30pm and a nurse moved me to a different ward. I didn't want to move I wanted to sleep but I have to admit it was a much nicer calmer quieter ward.

I actually felt 100x better when I got to the other ward and sat up on my iPad for a few hours. The night was pretty painful again, but much less than when I was at home.

 Food was the most repulsive thing I've ever eaten and I waited from about 7am to 3pm for my mum and Matt to visit me. I was feeling SO SO SOOOOOO MUCH better and couldn't wait to get out of there and go home! I was dying to wash my hair as it was now Wednesday and I hadn't washed it since Friday. Yuck. I felt gross. 

The Doctor then came around 4pm and I was all ready to go home and she said I had to stay another night, some hooohaaa about having a temperature. I of course turned into a 10 year old girl and started sulking and wouldn't look at or talk to the doctor. My mum went home to fetch me more bits and Matt stayed with me. It was really nice actually we just sat in my bed together. Dinner was VILE and eventually Matt’s mum came back with some of my stuff (including pizza bread she snuck in for me ehehe) 

Matt and his Mum eventually left at around 9pm and I was all alone again D: however I was playing on my phone and the night went quickly and I went to bed….. BUT WOW the pain that night was RIDICULOUS. They bought me in some painkillers and I called them back and they bought me more and I called them back and then they gave me strong ones that I had to eat before taking which was really painful and eventually they gave me MORPHINE :O I was a little scared but at this point it was 3:30am and I had been awake since around 1am sobbing and I just wanted to sleep. It made me sleep, VERY quickly lol and no more pain either.

However I planned on sleeping in late as I really hadn't had any sleep all week and the tea lady woke me up around 7am and I couldn't get back to sleep. I messed up my order of breakfast and ordered two butters and only one piece of bread and also forgot the orange juice. Had to wait a long time for someone to un hook me so I could pee lol but the morning went quickly and at 11am I went down to where it all started and was looked over again by a doctor and they discharged me! YAAAY

My mum came but it took around 4 hours to wait for them to bring my medication to me! Eventually I left and the walk from the ward to the car actually almost killed me. I spent the evening laying in bed eating pizza with Matt. Everything seemed to make me super tired. Friday came and I finally managed to wash my hair YAAAAY!

Saturday I was very weak and pathetic still and Sunday I went in for a check-up. Good and bad news. I have to have hearing tests and there is now a hole in my ear drum….. However it is all healing and hopefully it will heal up on its own. I am worried about my hearing… but fingers crossed it will go back to normal.

I had an inner and outer ear infection and it was spreading to my Lymph nodes, which apparently is very bad. I thought I was being a woss, but actually turned out I was very ill.

So I went back to work Monday and that knackered me out I left early, but I’m back today and trying to get back in the swing of working….. Things feel a little out of place right now as everything in my routine got messed up but I am hoping by the end of the week I will be feeling fit as a fiddle again and things will be feeling better.!!

Thank god it's Friday..... UGH

So this was the week that I had been counting down the days until. AND NOW ITS OVER *weep*

It’s been a weird week, and I don’t deal with change and weirdness very well at all. Booo. It makes me feel very uncomfortable. So the plan was as follows, leave early Tuesday and see Mumford and Sons. Then wake up around 10am and gets Matts haircut and see the Doctor and generally potter around and then Thursday chill out and go to the hotel for around 2:30-3pm and get ready slowly and go the work Christmas party.

That did not really go to plan. So on Tuesday I got an e-mail from Kaplan international college about a job interview. Some of it involved designing books for children’s educational books which I was like ahhh I want to do that. So they rearranged the interview for the Thursday from the Friday and I had to be there at 10am. To be honest I really didn’t fancy going and I wasn’t sure about it at all but I thought, I REALLY have to give this a go otherwise I might regret it! I have to admit it wasn’t what I thought it would be like at all! It was really REALLY fancy like a proper high-class London job. Although I thought it was going to be a bit weird and dull it’s actually turned out to seem very exciting and manic it doesn’t overly appeal to me at the moment. It seems too fast paced and too manic and traveling to central London everyday just gives me a headache thinking about it. So I’m waiting to hear from them but I don’t think it is something I would want to do. But I think it was better to go and see than sit there forever thinking, ‘what if I had gone’. Then on the way home I had a voice mail about a job closer to home that pay up £25,000 a year :O WHOA! And they found me I didn't even apply! I really hope I can arrange an interview for there, it sounds good, although I am torn as I do like my job here and I really love the people! But I do like the sound of the one closer to home and it could be up to £7,000 more a year which could get me a flat! So I am hoping to hear from them!

So yeah that meant I was up at 7am and on a train into London at 8am UGH! No lay in for me. and I was still tired from the day before after seeing Mumford and Sons. Alas…. So anyway we then went around London a bit after the interview, headed home and grabbed some lunch and headed down to Horsham. By the time we got there and I popped to get some bits for the night I had like an hour to get ready. It was a lovely night though even though I wanted a peaceful and relaxing time I did have fun! And obviously it was really lovely to spend time with Matt.

I am now back at work today. As I was already in Horsham me and Matt got Breakfast and I was in the office by 8:30am! Most people didn't come in till 9-10am but it means I can go home at 5pm today rather than like 5:30 so that should be really nice!

HOWEVER I haven't even spoken about Mumford and Sons yet!

My friend managed to get this awesome picture of me 'rocking out' with my banjo. I bought 4 inflatable ones for the gig! LOVE IT! They played amazingly and they got the whole arena going and singing and dancing. I enjoyed every single song and Marcus is just exceptionally cute! 

The place went CRAZY when they did Lion Man and I was so happy they played Winter Winds as that is my favorite song!

Outside however the temperature had dropped to -4 and this thick fog had spread everywhere. It hurt to breathe in as it was SO SO ICY COLD! Although  I like that as it makes me feel all christmassy!

I found some pretty cool videos from the night on YouTube so they aren't mine but they are really good and have the cute bit where Marcus's button on his shirts keeps coming undone.

Speaking of Christmas too I can't wait to paint my nails glitter red (I paint them this colour all through December but I wore a pink dress last night so I had to take it off) tonight BECAUSE I GOT NAIL STICKERS!! Christmas ones! On eBay they were £1.40 and they have reindeers and snowflakes. They came yesterday and I have been DYING to try them! I am super excited!

I attempted candy cane nails last week! I love doing christmasy things!

I was pretty pleased with them. Last year I tried to do all my nails like that, but it got kinda messy so I just did the one! I am so happy it is Friday and I have two days off because I feel like death at the moment! I hope the afternoon goes really quickly because I don't have very much/nothing to do all afternoon. BOOOOO. So PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE LET 5o'clock come as quickly as possible so I may SLEEP!

Ma Partay

I had a really nice Saturday this weekend. Work last week was manic and I had so much to do. But that was good as it meant the days flew by! But I have loads to do today and tomorrow.

Saturday I got up real early and went and took Matt to the station and then went to spec savers and got the contacts sorted out! Dailies seem  to be working much better for me than monthly ones. I then drove straight to Croydon and was there by 10:30am and it was really quiet and very pleasant shopping on a Saturday as usually I go in the afternoon and it is way too busy and hectic. 

 I had a very good shop too and got some lovely bits. The jumper to the right, I've always wanted a tacky Christmas jumper and now my dreams have come true and for £12 too so it wasn't even expensive. I cannot wait to wear that out at Christmas time! WOOOPA! 

Then I went into New look and found a LOVELY skirt and I tried it on a it looked great which made me very happy. It’s hard to find skirts that I love. Usually I hate the pattern or the shape is completely wrong, but this one was exactly what I like and I also bought a Moustache scarf! I will post a picture of them up when I am next wearing them!
I then went for lunch and a look round Redhill with Gem and then picked Matt up from work and headed over to Cat’s house to have a night with the girls from Uni and a little birthday thing…. BUT THEY ACTUALLY THREW ME A SURPRISE PARTY.

 It was soo soo soo cool and there was a party table and balloons and a banner and food and drink! It was sooo nice! And then they got me the coolest gifts. They all went and got me a bear hoody that I have wanted forever and Aimee drew me a pillow of all the amazing things that I love the most. It made me completely speechless which is something that is very hard…. It was amazing and it was all so thoughtful!

We then ordered Pizza and ate too much, watched some TV played with balloons and just had a really really nice night! I had to leave about midnight as I was falling asleep I was so tired, but it was fun and I was really touched they would go out their way to do that for me.

Sunday on the other hand was pretty shit. Had a MASSIVE HEADACHE, weather was awful and it was boring and long and I wasted half  the day asleep. Ahhh well, and now it’s Monday again and I have a whole week of work ahead of me. Boooo….

Toodles.

Dresses, and France in a few days YAAAAAY

Ok so after work I did decide to go shopping! I found pretty much nothing. Boo

It took me like 1-2 hours to get there as I got stuck on the M25 so by the time we got there we only had about an hour pfft! I did however find this super cute top, It's a peplum top with cute little owls on it and it has a cute peter pan collar!

I then went to Crawley with Gem on Saturday and found nothing again, it was WAAAY TOO busy! So today I decided to rick it as I am desperate to get some cute bits for France! I CAME INTO LUCK and I found lots of things!

I got this dress in a burgundy, its lovely and from primark £13! Bargin, looks sooo nice. I also got this snood that was £4 and is MASSIVE! Like seriously massive! and a new cardigan for £6 as I do love Primark cardigans even though they get holes and lose thier shape they are so soft and cheap!

I also go this stripe dress. I thought, nooo stripes make you look wider, but when I put it on I was like WOWZA I LOVE IT! I think with a colour cardy and a nice big scarf it will look so cute! This was also £13 in Primark!

Then I found this is NewLook. They did not have it the last few days when I have been hunting! It's super cute and only £17. Its sooo silky soft and I love it, its more purple than red like the other one! It will go very nice with my new snood!.

 

So I am really excited now as I am going to France in 2 days and I have amazing things to wear! AND I FEEL so cute in them, which is what I wanted, and surprisingly they are all really nice lengths! I can't wait to wear these, and we are there for 3 whole days and then 2 half days so I have an outfit a day :D wooohooo.

I believe we are going to Anger and also going to the Zoo at some point too! I think I will take an extra dress in case we go out for dinner, well if I can squeeze it in my hand luggage as that is all I am taking! Matt most likey wont take much so maybe i'll squeeze some in his mwuahahah!

I am feeling much better about myself and things today, even though I have the worst possible headache ever.

Anyways toodle pips and goodnight x

BEAUTIFUL sunny day in Brighton

Ok so me and the sister (Sarah) went to Brighton today. I had planned on doing very little to nothing to relax and recover from the working week, buts Sarah talked me into to going to Brighton and it wa actually relaxing! We just played on the pier, had a milkshake and went on a water ride. I won a Panda bear woooo! Then we chilled out on the beach and paddled in the sea which was freezing and painful on the pebbles. Sarah also had a sketch thing done of us which she failed to look at the camera in any of the photos its was very funny and my hair is so light it didn't draw the top of my head ehehe.

So tomorrow Cat is coming here around 10:15ish and we are heading to Blue Water to meet John Barrowman and his sister at a TorchWood book signing weeeeeeeeeee! It's exciting!

I also picked up this really nice purple hoody. Its a really nice colour! Ended up going to TopMan as the colours they did were soooo much nicer than TopShop and they came up muh longer too!! WOOO. Might get a Grey one too! Maybe.

I managed to give myself a panic attack at work on Friday too. That was super embarrassing D:

I thought I was going to be sick a I've had a tummy ache for the last few days.... and I have a phobia since I was a kid of being sick and I just freaked out a little :(

I hope it doesn't make people think i'm stooopid. :( anyhooo I feel so silly now! 

Anyhoo that is all for today soo byes xx