Things I pine for while shopping in bed!

It’s been a few weeks since a proper update.

To be honest there isn’t much to update on. Work is getting better each week is becoming easier and easier. I am missing WDR a little I have to say. Just a little bit though, I think I miss being ‘out my shell’. I am still quite shy here and it’s hard to get the ‘me’ across. I am trying not to force it out though. I guess it will come with time.

So this weekend has been nice, I took my Grandma shopping which was really really nice day out! She seemed to have a great time and was busy buying lots of things! She was very generous and treated me to a jumper, lunch and gave me petrol money!

Sunday however I woke up and just felt awful. Saturday night actually I couldn’t stay awake past 10pm just kept falling asleep. I have felt pretty unwell for a week or so now but it kinda gets bad and then nothing happens. It’s very annoying tbh.  So yesterday I spent a day in bed playing on my Ipad and doing lots of online window shopping.

I won’t lie I am SOOO CLOSE To ordering the shoes. I really am and also the cherry dress. I was naughty and ordered the Duck dress. I do not have high hopes of it fitting as I am unsure on the sizing. I have a Yumi dress in a 14 but it’s a different shape and style. But I guess we shall see! Fingers crossed anyway. It was £45 reduced to £25 though, I love Yumi dresses but I would never pay full price they always seem to be on offer somewhere!

Healthy eating went to pot with a day out on Saturday and feel like shit on Sunday, but back on it today. I think my arms and back are much much more toned than they were. A dress I got for Christmas wasn’t fitting very well it dug into my arms, but when I wore it on Saturday it fitted beautifully!

Matt surprised me with these beautiful shoes two weeks ago! They are TUK shoes and I wanted them back in the summer, but they were too much money really. He spotted them in the sale just after Christmas and treated me to them! I am a lucky girl! I wore them out for dinner two weeks ago and they are actually very comfy as I struggle something awful in heels.

I saw the Hobbit last Saturday at the IMAX. I was brave as I didn’t want to go because of the massive spider scenes. However I braved it in the IMAX, and it wasn’t as bad as I thought.

I am REALLY enjoying the Hobbit films so last week I sat and watched all the LOTR films and really enjoyed those too (although a little long at times)

I watched the third one on Friday and as its about 3hours long I managed to find the time to paint my nails. I haven’t done any nail art since Christmas and I miss my little Santa nails so I thought I’d try something new (I also got a nail art kit for Christmas) so I tried these little bows and I think they turned out pretty darn good! 

So yeah, not much of an update. Life it fairly slow at the moment, esp when I’m trying to save money!

But I will end of this I found. While on Pinterest I found the wedding dress I want! Its SOOO BEAUTIFUL! 

Now I just need Matt to pop the question ehehe! I’ve already picked a venue and tablet placements! The only thing I’m overly planned on ha! Ahh well maybe one day I hope!

Ramblings about full time work.

Work is a funny thing really. I was thinking about it today and it’s quite serious now. For the previous 7 or so years of my life it was something I HAD to do on the side of my education if I wanted to have a social life or own anything like clothes or well anything really.

It was something that didn't’t really matter too much, a few hours here, a few hours there. Nothing that took up more than 15 or so hours of my week except when doing over time. But now it’s something that is part of me and part of my life. Now I am in a job to get a career, something I am interested in and studied for this for 5+ years. It’s not something to just fund my social life and clothes and other things I wish to buy, it’s become a part of my identity. I spend over 30% of my life in this chair, in this office doing this job.

It’s now important that it meets the goals I want it to meet and it’s a comfortable and nice environment for me. The last year and a half has tipped my world upside down. I have always been in education from the age of 14-23 I have had small part time jobs here and there. I haven’t had any real responsibilities and I had more freedom than I knew what to do with.

Now it’s changed and I am an important part of a team and I have very little freedom and free time so I have to make the most of the time I get! I have to make sure that the job I’m doing is right for me because I spend 8.5 hours of my day here +1hour traveling. Then 8 hours sleeping you are looking at very little ‘me time’ in the day. This was something I really struggled with when I first started working, I thought what the fuck is the point to life! Admittedly my view point hasn't changed much, but I now except that this is something I have to do to have a nice life and until I win the Euro Millions I will make the most of the time I do have at home and the nice things I can afford to do and afford to buy!

I guess it scares me how adulthood has finally started to take its grip.

My next plan in life isn't where to go with my friends or what college project is due, or YAY summer holidays.

Now it's saving up for a house and looking at really starting my life for the first time. Its helped with a new job, a new identity and an forgotten past.

New job!

HAPPY BELATED NEW YEAR

So I have been meaning to do a long overdue blog about my new job!

I had planned on writing just after I started but the first week and a bit was all a bit much for me. I almost went running back to my old Job!

So I started on the Friday and came home a bit shaken up! I wasn’t overly surprised as I thought I would be a bit overwhelmed. I was actually really pleased to start on a Friday it meant I had the whole weekend to recover. Then Monday came round and the start of my first whole week. I ended up getting really bad anxiety and panic attacks for the first 3 days. Everything was horrible, I was out of place it was ALL TOO MUCH FOR ME. I wanted my old routine and my old comforts. I ended up in the loo on Wednesday morning unable to contain it all anymore. I felt really silly and just wanted to run away!

We had the Christmas party Wednesday afternoon and then I had my old works Christmas party on Thursday so I got to see everyone one last time.  Have to say though KNACKERED me out!

Luckily I got through my first week (just about) and then the weekend came around. I don’t think it helped either that it was Christmas so everything was up in the air and different because of the time of year.

So I went in Monday and then I had 9 glorious days off. I’m so pleased I had a lovely long break because as I said I felt like I was going crazy.

Anyhoo since coming back in the New Year (went in it gradually 2 days then weekend!) it’s settled down loads and I’m quite enjoying it here. I like the freedom that I can wear what I want and there is more freedom in general here than at my old job.

The people are nice and the office atmosphere is 10x better than my previous job too! I’ve started to drive in 1. to help with settling down and 2. Cause buses suck.

Now I’m gunna end this post with some nice clothes I have been wearing and bought.

I’d like to say now THIS YEAR no more clothes! 1-2 months shopping free, or so I plan/hope haha!

Primark Jumper! Really loved the collar

A Wear Dress. Christmas gift from Ma & Pa

Asos jumper! Loved it and snapped it up in the sale!

New Coat THAT I ADORE. ASOS - Skirted Shape. Perfect for me!

Anyhoo thats all for now!