Nearly half way through the week!

It’s Wednesday again. Nearly halfway through the week. I didn’t get to go to my interview on Friday it got cancelled which is pants pie, however it has been rescheduled to the 6^th of March which is in exactly a week. It will be nice as Matt has the day off too. I’m also super prepared as I prepared everything on Thursday evening and got to work at 8am on Friday ready to leave at 11:30am and I got an e-mail at 8:03am saying that had to postpone which was sucky. But they have rescheduled which I am pleased about so I will be going next week now and it gives me chance to find a nice interview dress over the weekend.

My dress from eBay came and fitted like a dream, I was going to wear it to the interview but I felt it was a little plain so I thought I would treat myself to a new dress as my other interview dress is ripped and that way I have a new work dress anyway! I’m thinking within the £40 budget! I shouldn't really spend anymore monies. Bah.

Although saying that this week I have acquired a few new items mwuahah.

Dress £13 Primark can’t wait to wear it out to dinner or in the summer.

Bag £8 in Tesco, Got so fed up of having a big bag!

Cardigan - £5ish from H&M but won it on eBay!

So I am quite happy with my bits and pieces but seriously I am not spending anymore monies! I got Matt’s birthday present this week which was over £200 >.< but it’s done now yaaaay.

I can’t wait to go out for his birthday too and spend some days with him!! :D

Anyway I must do work. 

I want more Ice Cream

It’s on Wednesday I think, I seem to be losing track of the days in this week! It is going quickly though. I think that is what scares me about working full time is how quickly the days/weeks/months fly by! It was meant to be a 6 week thing here and now it’s turned into a 7 month thing…. Over half a year UGH! However I have a job interview on Friday and I am so excited for it! It’s a junior designer role working for a company called ‘Unspun’.

It looks like a really exciting opportunity, they’ve done events for the Olympics last year and it seems like it could be a really exciting and good opportunity for me to move forward and become more than a junior designer!

I went out with Haymus a lot at the weekend. It was really nice and made coming back to work even harder on Monday. The Sherlock Holmes tour was great fun and I generally had a really nice day/weekend. We ate a MASSIVE ICE CEREAM EACH, should of only got one as between the both of us we probably almost binned one. It was SOOOOO tasty though! Its making me hungry thinking about it and I still have an hour till lunch UGH! 

I also went and saw everyone for Danika's birthday and ate LOADS OF TGI Fridays food it was gooooooooood!

I have nothing to do this weekend, not sure what to do with myself! I will try very hard NOT to go shopping this week. I DO NOT NEED TO GO! I got some nice bits of ebay though….

Marks and Spencers dress that would have been around £40 new, it’s only been worn once and I got that for £5.19 so with postage it was about £8. I really hope it fits because it will be a bargain if it does!

So I started writing this post before lunch and now it’s almost 4pm ahah I kept getting distracted, by what I DO NOT KNOW as I really haven’t had very much to do…. But I only have 1 more full day then Friday will be a 3 hour day and I will be off to London town to go for my interview WOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO! And then OF COURSE it will be the weekend. I really hope this job works out for me, but I also hope I can still have my 3 days off with Matt in March! I have everything crossed! Hopefully I can make this work for me I am hoping anyway!

So anyway I have just over an hour to kill and I am hoping it flies by, but I’m not so sure it will the whole day has been DRAGGING ITS ASS, at least it will be lovely and sunny when I leave work tonight as the sun isn’t setting till like 6pm now rather than 4:30pm!

Toodles

FRIDAY WOOOPA

Its Friday YAAAAAAAAAAAAAAY this has been a long ass week seriously I cannot ait to go home now. I only have around an hour left so hopefully it will fly by! I’m off out this weekend with Aimee to the Sherlock Holmes walk and I am somewhat excited about that fact. Then on Sunday I get to spend the day with her too which will be very nice as I hardly see her anymore with work and crap!

This week as been average again, still searching high and low for a job but no luck yet alas…. I went to lakeside with Matt on Wednesday evening and that turned out to be a massive success. I finally got a floaty denim which I didn’t hate. It’s not exactly what I want as it’s a skater skirt, but it’s better than the one that I have currently that soon will not fit me at all. SO I’m pleased with that and I also picked up the prettiest dress.

The downside to it is its white which isn’t great with me as I am so messy. I will just have to be careful in it lol and wear a napkin when I am eating!

My healthy eating has been going pretty well at the moment. I lost 5lbs yaaaaay! I know I will end up eating like a pig this weekend  as I’m going up to London and then on Sunday we will be going to TGI Fridays to celebrate Danika’s birthday and I’m looking forward to it as I’m hungry right now. But tonight I have zoo animals and Pizza bread YUMMO!

Anyway just a short update and now less than 30 minutes left so I will go and finish my work YAAAY!

Monday morning blues

So last week I was pretty sick…. I had a job interview Monday morning last week and it didn’t go great tbh. I had to go to Clapham Junction for a birthday drink thing Sunday evening. Around 9 I noticed I had a bad headache and by 10 I realised I have a stinking cold. Ugh….

So I woke up Monday, I got a slight lay in which was nice but my head felt like it was full of fuzz and I couldn’t breathe and I just wanted to sleep. I dragged my ass in and I dragged my ass into work too but left after just over 2 hours. I slept lots it was nice. Then Tuesday I felt even worse but I managed to make it through the whole day! Almost anyway I left 45 minutes early.

I had a video to do on Wednesday which was ok and then on Thursday afternoon and all day Friday I got to work from home to edit the video. I won’t lie, I LOVED IT! I wish I could work at home more! Hopefully they will want more videos editing.

The weekend was alright. Matt wasn’t well Friday and Saturday so he came home early on Friday and we had Chinese omnomnom and we had a nice lunch on Saturday and went into Croydon where I got this AWESOME new purse.

So because I felt so grim last week I tried with the healthy eating thing and failed…. I did ok for like two days but when you feel that grim and you are fucking starving hungry you really do just think FUCK IT! And I had KFC, McDonalds, Chinese food, Burger King and subway the list is stupid really and that was over a week btw not in one day! So much money wasted! ALAS! Today I feel a bit crappy cause I’m so tired but today the healthy eating crap really does start today! It’s hard when I really am STARVING seriously I actually feel sick! Only half hour till I can eat my lunch! I can wait I CAN WAIT!

Another reason I want to eat healthy is too lose weight obviously but because I got a really nice jacket last weekend. Only £30 and its perfect for what I wanted. It fits ok but it could fit better and I’d like to wear it over hoodies and such like so a little more room it would be nice aha!

  

So my goal at the moment is  16lbs, it was 10lbs but I put on 6 over Christmas >.<

This time last year I found it so so easy to do this healthy eating crap and now I’m really struggling! I CAN DO IT THOUGH! I will do my goal is the summer so I have a fair amount of time until then!

Today at work is pretty dull as I don’t really have much to do, actually I don’t have anything to do except count down the minutes until lunch time! Which really can’t come soon enough!

Last week was awful

Ok so I am doing an update for the worst week I’ve had in a very very long time!

So I posted a little about Matt not wanting to marry me or anything which still truly breaks my heart. Then I asked my Mum and Dad to get me a loan as I wasn’t approved for one AGAIN. They pretty much spent a few days having a go at me and shit, which was not appreciated. They took it way too hard and freaked the fuck out. My mum claimed she couldn’t sleep and ugh I wish I hadn't bothered. Then they sat down on Saturday and added it all up for me which I have already done so that fucked me off and came to the conclusion I could just save up £800-£1000 a month and pay it off in around 7 months. That is not what I wanted to do. I wanted a loan ffs. I have things like tyres and car insurance and shit to get before then and Matt’s birthday. So by the time I have saved up to pay that shit off and saved up money for a flat it will most likely be 2014. So that’s another fucking year stuck in Matt’s bedroom. Ugh kill me now.

Then to end my fantastic week snow came (this excited me) then the woman in charge here told me to pretty much get advice on what to wear at work. This made me sob and she doesn't seem to realise that it was hurtful the way she said it and singled me out. She says she didn't but she bloody did when she did it in front of people and I had NO IDEA that she wasn’t happy with the way people are dressing at work. If she had called me in alone and said your dresses are lovely but maybe little short for work I would have been like ok. But instead she belittled me and patronised me and ultimately humiliated me and she made me get so upset. Ass.

So I went out Saturday (did order a dress on tesco but it was cancelled as it sold out) and got a few tops from Primark and a skirt from Marks and Spencers. I hate it all. I feel terrible in it! I think it will motivate me to eat healthier cause I don’t wanna go buy more things to wear just because I feel uncomfortable. It’s Monday and a New Year and its better late than never. I have kinda started my healthy eating but I keep falling off the wagon. But now I WILL NOT! I will do this I swear. I want to do it for the summer!

So anyway I am job hunting like crazy as I really wanna get something that’s either closer to home or better pay and not here. Then I can really start to save towards my goal of paying off my debts.!

Le sigh.

I’m so frustrated. I want to start my life. Marriage, my own flat and getting rid of these massive debts that I have run up. These are the road blocks that I face. Matt doesn’t want to marry me. He says he wants to stay with me but this will be it now. No future no husband no kids. No one will give me a loan to consolidate my debt so I just keep paying large amounts of interest on all my debts but pay nothing off. And then I just can’t seem to afford a flat. I don’t even have any money behind me. I am going to start saving now. I started last week but I haven’t done amazingly at it. But from this day onwards I will only be spending money I have to spend. I would like to put AT LEAST £300-£500 a month away. It will be hard but I think I can do it. I worked out WE HAVE TO SPEND around £950 a month. Between me and Matt at the moment we earn £2,200ish possibly a bit more. That is £1,200ish a month that we spend of crap. That’s food and going out and clothes etc. If I did manage to put £300-£500 a month away I could pay at least half of this crap off in around 4 months…. And then in the next 6 months perhaps I could look at moving out maybe? I hope so anyway. I wish I would of started saving back in August but oh well lesson learnt again.

I guess with Christmas coming I have just enjoyed having money and not having to scrimp and save every bloody penny.

I must waste so much money of food too. £44 this week got me a week of food, lunch, breakfast and dinners. I then have wasted around £20 on two take aways. I dunno why I keep doing it. I have been good though. I sent back that bag and bought a new one for £6 instead of £50 and I’m not going to buy the Unicorn dress I want…. Because let’s face it I have 101 dresses and I never get to wear 90% of them (excluding the ones for work, but I don’t enjoy wearing them as I am usually going to work) and ok I only have a few dress I like to ‘go out’ in, I only go out about once a year so that doesn’t really matter. Cinema and shopping evenings I will put a stop to. Now and again will be ok but, only now and then. I will maybe buy some popcorn and 65p drink from tesco and watch films with Matt. That would cost around £1-£3 rather than £10-£30! That’s a pretty massive saving! And if I do that loads I could easily save money! I’m sure of it!

So Yeah I’m feeling pretty flat at the moment. I want everything to be better, but instead I have FUCKED my future up at the moment.

Today at work has been pretty shit. I haven’t really had much to do the last week and it makes the days go so slowly. I wish I was busy all the time. I would really rather be busy busy than spending large portions of my days doing nothing or trying to find things to do.!

Anyway there is only 25 minutes left (of just over) of the day I can’t wait to get home. Well I can, I just like sitting on my own at the moment, so I can’t wait to sit alone in my car for 45 mins on the way home.

I’m not feeling great right now and I’m pretty heart broken :(

Many bargains

Ok so we are a week or just over into 2013. My healthy eating has gone a bit shit. But after getting on the scales and seeing I put on like 10lbs it seems to have kicked me in the butt. I kinda hope I’m still a bit bloated from xmas cause THAT IS A LOT to put on. Bah. So the last 2 days I have been starving hungry all day but hopefully that will get better as time goes on.

I have also done some MATHS and worked out that a flat at £700 a month would be a lot of monies >.< THUS I have decided to start saving up money to start paying off my debt as I owe WAY TOO much money and this making a problem for me being able to afford things and stuffs. SO I HAVE PLEDGED NOT TO BUY ANYTHING! Although I was little naughty at lunch as I bought a new dress for work…. Although I don’t count this too much as it is for work and I really did need some new work clothes! Plus is was £28 reduced to £10 WOOOPIIE.

However in the last week I have bought 4 dresses that have cost me a total of £44 and £22 was spent on a gift card that I got for Christmas. In total they should of cost me £143 so I saved £99 :o I’m so chuffed with them.

Dorothy Perkins - £35 to £7

 Oasis- £48 to £12

Fusion - £28 to £10

Dorothy Perkins -  £32 to £15

I’m so pleased with them as they are all nice too! They aren’t what I would usually buy, but they are great and perfect for work and would be great if/when I get a new job and I might have to dress a little smarter than what I have to wear now.

I was also naughty and bought this bag…. It was expensive at £49.99 and I CANNOT DECIDE IF I WANT TO KEEP IT OR NOT! D:

It’s cute and by crowded teeth and Loungefly.

However I can’t decide if I love it or hate it! Is it super cute? Or kinda ugly? i just can't decide BAAAH!

Today i feel awful, the last hour or so i have such a bad headache and I'm SOOOOO VERY HUNGRY! 

Anyway its nearly home time thank god and tomorrow is Friday YAAY!